"You gotta know when to hold 'em"......
"Know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away and know when to run." Who knew that the great American philosopher Kenny Rogers was a runner? I do know if he gets one more face lift he's gonna be a Ballchinnian! (obscure reference to Men in BLack II and a dang funny visual!). I didn't run Big Sur, I went out there and I ran, but I did not do the marathon. I simply let my coaching responsibilities 'outweigh' my commitment to running the marathon. I was undertrained, period. I know better yet sometimes as a coach/trainer/motivator it's more "do as I say do, not as I do." I do know what it's like to give others advice (when it's bad news) when they don't want to hear it, and I really didn't like taking my own medicine. Micki will often say to me, "What would tell someelse to do? I hate that!! Um, becaseu she's right. There's another author/speaker I enjoy and in one of his books on positive mental attitude he clearly states, "It ain't the rain, the snow, the boss, the competition, the spouse, the money, the car, the job, or the kids - it's you! And it always has been." I had to 'cowboy' up, take my medicine and make the best out of what I didn't do. My non-participation was my own fault, period! That's cool, I can fix that. I can set aside specific days/times to get my training in. I can be a little more 'selfish' of me and my time to make it happen; but what to do in California? Our pre-race run (the 3 miler 'knock the rust off' taper run we do before every marathon) was one of my top 10 runs ever! It was wonderful! We ran by Monterey Bay past Fisherman's Wharf. We saw the harbor seals sunning and heard them as they lay there barking. We then ran on a 'trail' designed for bikes and runners through part of Old Monterey (hey! Could be a song...Kenny?) then at trails end rather than just turn around we went down 1 block and ran down the Monterey of Steinbeck's Cannery Row. It was an incredible trip through history! You can absolutely envision the characters and life style of a bygone era as you run down the street. Lee Chong, Doc, Mack...you can almost see them and the cannery workers milling around through the cool mist. In fact Ed Rickett's (the character model for Doc) lab is still standing on Cannery Row. A genuine treat of a run....after 2 nights in Monterey we re-located to Carmel, about a mile from the marathon finish. Since I as not going to run the full (yes there were other options, a 21 miler (huh?!? A 10.6 miler and a 9 mile edition) I actually decided to run out backwards and 'escort' the others in. in order I trotted out and met in order, Kile then Darnell, then Sara and Micki just to distract them or let 'em know where they were, how many more hills and how many musical acts to the finish. Oddly I never felt a tinge of regret once I got out on the course; one reason was cause I knew I would have died and fallen into the ocean somewhere near the Bixby Bridge. The real reason was because for a day, for an hour I got to witness a form of greatness. I ran with 4 athletes who had braved some serious uphills (and down!) and 40 mph winds at various points on the course. Still despite the elments and their weariness they were driven to finish! I was genuinely moved by these 4 and more importantly to me, I was inspired, deeply inspired. I was in awe of what they 'had'...there was no 'folding' or 'walking away'. I got to see the grit, desire and determination that is in all of us. I don't think we always 'feel' it when we're using our desire and dermination, but I now know that others can see it! It wasn't limited to the '4'; I saw hundreds drawing on the same inner power but it was the '4' that I got to see it up close and it was amazing, powerful and awe-inspiring....all at once. As we move towards a summer of training for our Fall marathons and Half Marathons, know those hot days, early mornings, long runs don't just train your body. They train your mind, your spirit, and your will. And when you need your mind, your spirit and your will because your legs and body are 'shot', they'll be there - so the reverse of the above quote comes true. It is you and always has been! It's just a better, stronger version that you molded in your training to prepare for this moment; this moment when you needed YOU! And....you were there.

